Richellexo: Feeling girly.

I always knew I wanted to be a mom. I dreamed about having three to four kids...with at least one of each. I would fantasize about their names,what they'd look like, how I'd dress them, and so on. I really imagined having at least ONE girl. Maybe she'd look like me, have cute blonde ringlets that I'd put in pigtails. Dress her up in the most adorable dresses, and frilly socks. Paint her toe nails for the first time....and cultivate a mother daughter bond like I have with my mom. (except, my mom is more of a tomboy.) None the less, I yearn for that bond. Clearly, that is not what The Lord wanted for me. I'm not exactly sure why...but I've learned that He has a sense of humor...and a reason for EVERYTHING. I sometimes feel ashamed of myself for feeling ANY feelings of ungratefulness, or displeasure. After all...I am so lucky to have had three successful, healthy pregnancies. When some couples struggle to have just one. I admit though, when I see all the fun girly things, I have a little sadness in my heart, that I will never experience what its like to have a baby girl. (I'm welling up with tears as I speak). Looking at the bright side, I am likely to spend less money on "stuff" by having boys. Their options for clothes are limited. Although, I have been getting creative with their outfits. And there's always the chance of having grand daughters. Lots of them. So I can spoil the crap outta them, and send them home to their mom & dad. (that's what my Grammie did for me). So, for now, playing dress up by myself (and occasionally with my second son, Jax, who likes to prance around in my heels.....shhhhh...don't tell his daddy) will have to do.
This dress is very girly. With the pastel floral pattern, and the skater style skirt...it really conveys femininity. The arm holes are cut kinda low, similar to a muscle tank (which I'm currently obsessed with) So it kinda gives it an edgy vibe. I like edge. I paired it with high top Converse. Because...why not? I didn't get a shot of the back of the dress, but it's cut into a low V....luckily, the material is thick enough,that I didn't have to wear a bra. Let me just say....whenever I don't have to wear a bra....I'm a happy girl. (TMI?)
Anyway, I hope you enjoy. Thank you for reading, and listening to a piece of my story. Until next time...